Summer has started again, and there's again the pressure of finding a job. The past two summers i've always had internships and this year my resume is more beef'd up then ever, but it seems like it's soo much harder to find one this summer... sigh. I think if i went out i could find a consumer-based job like in the mall or somethin, but then it's an issue of honor where I feel like i've taken a step back.
I think it's mentallie impossible for me to ever relax and fullie enjoy life. I put on an optimistic and friendly face alot of times but deep down i just want to crawl into a hole and never come out. I haven't really enjoyed the first week of summer at all, even after my two best friends and all my other college friends came back.
I guess I go to the gym, whether for b-ball, lift, or to swim alot of times because it's the onlie place where i can realli relax and concentrate on what's physical, not all the crap that's mentally in my head and heart. I find myself waking up at 8:00 A.M for no reason at all then to go the gym and lie in the pool staring at the ceiling for almost a hour, wondering what's the point. I wish i was back on campus.
I forgot how refreshing xanga can be, even if no one reads it, because alot of times we just need to reflect upon ourselves personallie. i find myself hating facebook now. it's like someone writes you a comment and then you write something back, peferabbly realli creative or funnie... leaves you so empty. wat happened to actuallie getting together and talking / bonding. here's some random pictures from the week so far.
There is one thing i'm looking forward to tho, it's gonna be realli nice going to see the seniors graduating. i'm so proud of them, especiallie since some of these friends i've known for years now. Before i came to vernon hills i didn realli have a real friend for more than half a year cuz of moving so much, but to actuallie have friends u've known for years now and to see them graduate, that's trulie a gift from god.
- Kellogz
P.S : Akon is the man. everything he touches is gold. my fav new artist.
Break was realli realli good, even tho we're suppose to have 4 weeks this year and they chose to cut us one week short, but how can you be mad when you've met so many new and awesomily delicious people ^^ Chilled wit friends from ISU, U of I, and other colleges and the yg for the first like week, then went to ohio, Columbus where me and a bunch of wierdos stayed up till like 1:00 every nite, eatin 18 dollar lunches, snowboardin, mall, partie, movies, blah blah laal la. wow i need to like tottalie retake english class, i forgot how to use periods. Came back and salvaged w/e time i had left, worked on resume, attended b-dai parties, ate alot of food, harrassed my lil brother, then viola, went back to school, that completes the formula that is winter break 06'
... wheeeee. hope everyone'z finalz back home went well. the first week of second semester of sophomore year has gone for lift off, and all engines seem to be fine and in order. sorrie for that analogy, i wanted to be creative for once but apparentli it failed without mercie. I like my classes, and altho my mondai - wensdai - fridais are crazie busie, i onlie have one class on tuesday and thursday.. mwhahaahahaha.. even tho i spend half the time on those dais doin hw cause i barely have time on mond-wens-frid. i also get read bed-time stories by the wonderful Grandma Kathy = D
been talkin on aim too much lately, aim = bad for you, but nonetheless, me talkin about it doesn't mean i'm gonna stop and to be truthfullie i'm not gonna stop. "Honesty is the key to freedom" - Toniee ^^ dun use that quote, i officiallie copyrited it. losers. sometimes... i mean everi single moment of my life, i wish i was younger, the years are goin by wai too fast, i need to slow down and stop pesterin my mind wit interviews, internships, meetin peoples standards like i alwayz trie to do. well there's realli absolutely no other reason for me to keep typin cause xangas pretti much dead now, so i'll post some pictures from break. = ) i mean, who doesn like pix rite? no order bi the wai, juss w/e i saw from my folder/steals first hehe
warning : i like totalie juss uploaded and clicked all the pictures in one repitition so everythings out of order and out of shape, too bad, who wants ice cream? i'm pretti random
*TAKE A DEEEEEEEEEEEP BREATHE* haha. I feel like Liching and Frances with so many pictures
ok i'm outie, buh bai amigos. and make sure you root for the bears. Oh and - I DO NOT EAT ICE CREAM SLOW. i like to enjoy the full mint chocolate / cookies and cream / cookie dough, unlike some peoplezzz =P
- Kellogs / iRobot Toniee / Aunt Toniee / Loser with No Friends
Wow ok, after like a half a year semester long lack of use of xanga, my comments went from like the mid 30 - 40 range into 4's... sweeeeeetttt. I kno that Marissa and Vigor check xanga so I must post these pix for them. Fun fun times. Sooo much walkin, sooo much drivin, soooo much laughing, soooo much eating, soooo much spending, soooo much hugging, sooo much of nothing. enjoi ^^ These are onlie a few of my pix, vigor, mary, karen and kat also took pix's so bug them if u want to see more.
Alrite, time to get ready for Ohio where i'll see Marissa and all the ohio peepz and ball it up wit caleb and jack ^^ woot
whoooooo, schools ova babie. time to partie, peferably wit strippers, drugs, and as many oompa loompa's as possible. dun even mention to me that the cycle starts all ova again in like 3 weeks cause you kno what, santa claus hates pessimists so stop bein uncool and start gettin freakaiii
lifez short and sweet babie, juss like this entriee = ]
Like a really famous and wise elf used to say durin the holidays - "We elves try to stick to the four main food groups: candy, candy canes, candy corns and syrup" .... ... ..... uuuuuhhhh, like uuh totttallie do not kno how that's relevant at all to my post but it has candy canes in it so i'm happie, we're all happie, woot woot ^^
Sophomore year has started. Socially it's about the same, except like half of my friends are in apartments now partyin it up every weekend cause they can in there non-ra filled apartments. academically its the same amount of lotsa credits as last year but i'm pledging Beta Alpha Psi, IMSA, community service work at the International Center, in addition to church ministries and intramural activities.
So yea, alot of work but its well worth it. Expect an awai message on constantly, (but room mate uses my speakers 24-7 so it wun be shaded).What's college without pushing yourself above simply classes? I had a great summer, a good labor dai weekend seeing everyone again (happy b-dai Jeff!), the only thing left is to look forward.
To end, some pictures of my new room.
Before goin out to throw around the football
Watche'd alot of movies here. Add my room mates speakers, set up same movie/ time, you have a 7.1 system. haha
Enjoyin the dorm food too much
At a rest stop back from Labor Dai weekend.
Car tottaly flipped/wrecked on 65. caused some traffic. good catch
This is what i'm doin now, complements of Zach. And yes, i skateboard to class often.
Room mate Zach. Hittin up family guy, everyone's favorite.
That's about it. Extra note - it's very wierd having Peter Ling in your phone book. But just to save everyone time cuase it will be the "it" question soon, his number is 224-433-1049. Ladiezz
About half-way done packing. For my first trip i'm just taking my computer, speakers, important gadgets, clothes, school neccesities, and dorm neccesities. Labor day weekend when I come back i'll then grab my mini fridge, air filter, and guitar. To sum this summer up again, it has been very rewarding and satisfying. Of course there's the high and low's but overall I have no regrets... well except maybe for some very specifics, ^^.
Especially this week, which felt like my entire summer condensed and on steroids. I actually canceled football wit Troyak and his big gang todai cause I was already wit some certain special people, me canceling a big and challenging football game is very verryy rare. As promised, here's the pictures from the camping trip and random parts of the summer when i did have my camera. Enjoy and feel free to ask me for any of the pictures, bigger versions, these memories are not just for me to keep.
Memories : Wondering where Jisi is, then remembering how much of a retard he is during water rafting. Not wanting to plan things on my last week so putting all responsibility on Vincent but end up doing half of the work anyway. Forgetting to return Feiman's dad's shorts. Summer is just not the same without camping and the beach. Here's more
Memories : Listening to Davie own Jisi, watching Jisi touch David, cuddling with Peter, all during the nite time. 99x Jokes, rowing with Jisi and getting owned by disgusting foam, rowing for hours, watching Hajin ditch his partner, trying to steal Han's jacket. Here's some more.
Memories : Seems like just a week ago, eating like crazie, restaurants everyday, seeing cousins, going back and forth the bridge at least four times a week, running in the track, drinking in celebration, basketball, hangin at cuzz's dorm, parties. Here's some more.
And to top it off, Vince and Moonis gettin FUnKaiiiii! It was in the dark so they didn't think anyone would be able to see what they were doing, but photoshop always solves that ^^
This summer so far has been very satisfying, both in content and in approach toward a general purpose and meaning. These last 2 days have been amazing, taking my bro to the park at morning, hangin wit the yg friends during the day, and then partyin (wit some hooka and *dun be offended* alcohol, for celebration of course) and chillaxin wit college buds both new and old at nite. So much time was invested into work and planning activites for the yg (not a bad thing of course) that I forgot how fun it is to hang with these peepz.
Aside from all the goofyness, wise-cracks and conversations, often times very immoral, when it gets down to the core, all it's about is friendship. Shaking hands wit all my ISU buds, as well as current seniors headin into there first year of college, having a mature conversation about the future and wishing them the best of luck, it just reminds you how important friendship is in life. I'm so blessed by god for all the people, from all spectrums, that he's introduced me to. We take it for granted a lot of times. Friendship is up there on the list, with god being at the very way way top of course.
Very important tip to upcoming College freshmen. Go all out man, go out and meet as many people as you can. Your mature enough to understand which one's you should keep, and which one's you shouldn't. Even if someone at first seems like he's not your type, give it some time and you'll find some connection, something that will last forever and ever. That's why college is so awesome.
Pictures from camping and this week will be up soon, too tired rite now. But just for a sample of the camping trip, play this video and watch it entire way through, sooo funniee.
